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5 November

I believe that vaccines are safe and are good science.

Today was the time for my dual covid and flu ones. I explained to the person who was going to administer both, that I was prone to seizures. Then quickly followed this up by saying ‘previous vaccinations have been fine and so will these be’. He thanked me for letting him know. You can see where this is heading.

He asked me what he should do in the event of a seizure. I explained. The first injection was the covid booster and it hurt. The second was the flu. As I moved seats, I said to my son, ‘that hurt’.

From injection to first seizure tremor – no more than a few seconds.

It took me about 45 minutes to get back to ‘normal’ whatever that is.

Bilateral tremors, a partial lie down and an absence. The finale was, as is always the case, a humungous post-ictal headache.

I still believe in vaccines wholeheartedly and continue to advocate their use.

Compared to the consequences of covid, having my 634th seizure is a minor event and transient.

I have annotated in my log, that number 634 has a special name, and that I am fine now. 😀😀

3rd October 2022

When I began documenting and applying science to my seizures, I set myself an objective for doing this.

To make sure I helped one person on their journey. One person becomes two, becomes four, etc. Exponential and butterfly effect.

Today I revisited a place where 12 months ago, I had back to back absence seizures.

One of the comments I have received today from a fellow seizuree (is there such a word) on another feed, is…

Quote ‘I’ve not commented on here before but have been very impressed by all your work David that you have shared and it gives me hope that things can improve. Hope you have a lovely holiday 😊 🌞 🏖’ Un-quote.

Happy and yes, as per last year and at the same vista, I ordered ‘a diet coke and a bottle of water’ only this time no seizures.

Seizures were never going to define me nor should anyone be.

25 September

Teaser for the upcoming September update.

It will compare this September to last September as I wrote a piece about my absence seizures in last year’s September update.

I can hear it now, ‘Are you writing a book?’. I could not possibly comment, confirm or deny.

A year ago, we went to Cyprus on holiday which allowed me to compare, contrast and to start to understand my absence seizures. They were the most difficult to ‘understand’ their onset process and to get to grips with leading to being able to diminish them.

Whilst there, we stopped one day at a vista overlooking the bay at Pomos. There is a small cafe just set back from the road. At the service desk, low tech yet functional, I asked for a diet coke for Miranda and a bottle of water for myself. The kind lady who I had never met before, passed to me the two bottles and commented ‘You look tired’.

I did. I sat down and had back-to-back absence seizures. Their duration was just over half an hour. My neural network had entered that weird and wonderful world of being both sub-conscious and yet conscious simultaneously.

The state I call ‘the cat’ after Schrödinger’s famous description of the quantum thought experiment.

Run forward one year. I am returning to Cyprus in a few days’ time. It will be the second time this year.

My plan is to once again go the vista at Pomos. To seek out this kind lady and ask her opinion of my health.

I think that she will be pleasantly surprised.

And here is the evidence. Neuroplasticity in action.

Seizure Activity
Seizure Activity

4 September

Teaser for this months update coming soon. I have an important speech to deliver on 17th September 😁😁.That takes precedence.

But here goes.

Full analysis to follow next few days. Looking promising 7 absences in 92 days equates to low probability.

Still inconvenient at the time but trend is established (3 m) and thus proof of new neural pathways are solidifying into a more beneficial default response.

In short expletive brilliant.

3rd September

In response to a query

Can anyone make sense of this. I’m wondering why do some symptoms persist and others go almost as quickly as they start? I thought some of you may have had a similar experience and may understand more as to why.

My main symptoms are tremors in my arm and legs, these are constant daily and have been since the beginning of my symptoms starting.
However, on Thursday evening I lost the ability to talk properly, words starting with F, S and M in particular would not come out no matter how hard I tried and I was stuttering and whispering. My partner described it as me sounding very drunk when I wasn’t and was very scared, whereas I put it down to FND.
Waking up on Friday and until now my speech is back to normal. I’m happy that it didn’t last, but cannot figure out how it happened so quickly? Is it almost like a temporary malfunction of the signals?

Hope this makes sense 😂

Response

Persistence is a product of the brain being primed and following the same pathway. Depth of persistence is broadly based upon the pathway becoming the default learnt response. More events increase the probability of adoption of learnt response. New events in response to the action upon the priming are variable as they are not yet the default pathway. Trick. Don’t let the response to the priming become the learnt response. Early intervention ie fewer events before interrupting. Breaking the cycle early. Just my tuppence worth.

Response

oh wow, that’s amazing and a really interesting way of reading about it. Thank you!

25 August

in response to a query of seizure (absence) symptoms

Hi the auras I have before an absence seizure in sequence of occurrence

Plussing in lower legs. This is as if you are a filling a hot water bottle. Warm tingly feeling. Dilation.
Rapid onset headache
Prominent veins on left hand
Breathing slows and becomes deeper
Loss of language
Visual aura white dots which do not cross the midline
General paralysis akin to paralysis experienced when naturally asleep. Ie unable to wiggle toes or fingers
Heart resting state levels at around 51 – I have a natural low resting state and my low resting state is c. 43.
Acute feeling of tiredness
Subtle rapid eye movement

The final one being the tipping point. I am then ‘absent”. Conscious but subconscious simultaneously but neither wholly one or the other. A perfect example of the of two states of the Schrödingers cat analogy.

Some say that once you are detecting/aware of an aura you are already in the ‘seizure process’ which explains why you know/are aware that you are becoming absent but yet cannot stop it as by definition you are absent. Just my tuppence worth and everyone’s auras, sequencing and experience will be unique.

When does it happen. Generally when not physically active and by implication in a more relaxed environment state of mind

24 August

Next step on my journey. A return to public speaking. I used to give public presentations and lectures but this is the big one. Father of the bride speech – 17th September. Not allowed to mess this one up. Speech written several months ago so in the event of a seizure ‘here is one I prepared earlier recording’. Current plan is for it to be real time. Starting to practice delivery next week. All of the techniques I have learnt over the past 16 months will be used. Should be fun and I will get through it one way or another. Already deploying my long-range seizure forecast model to mitigate. The week prior I will deploy medium and then short term forecast model to minimise seizure probability on the day. Current forecast suggests low absence probability and an even lower physical seizure probability.

24 August

Next step on my journey. A return to public speaking. I used to give public presentations and lectures but this is the big one. Father of the bride speech – 17th September. Not allowed to mess this one up. Speech written several months ago so in the event of a seizure ‘here is one I prepared earlier recording’. Current plan is for it to be real time. Starting to practice delivery next week. All of the techniques I have learnt over the past 16 months will be used. Should be fun and I will get through it one way or another. Already deploying my long-range seizure forecast model to mitigate. The week prior I will deploy medium and then short term forecast model to minimise seizure probability on the day. Current forecast suggests low absence probability and an even lower physical seizure probability.

13 August

Brief update on my science project.

In the process of drafting conclusions for the ‘paper’ – under embargo at the moment but thought you might find it interesting.

You never know, you may meet one day, one of c.4 to 12 in 100,000 who are affected by this.

Abstract:

a) functional seizures have a specific sequence of precursor biomarkers;
b) neural entrainment can be used to interrupt these sequences resulting in a significant reduction in seizure activity;
c) the current advice to try to distract seizure activity is paradoxically reinforcing seizure activity and is unhelpful when used in isolation. This is a major finding and, in some ways, explain why many continue to experience seizures with no respite or reduction.

David Spencer August 2022.

Summary

This is the outline of the process I have used over the past sixteen months. I have previously referred to this a shortening the metaphorical piece of string, and the DID (distract, interrupt, diminish) process as it relates to seizures.

It is about finding the tipping point, that moment of transition from voluntary to involuntary. Once found and understood, then working back to the first aura.

This reveals a sequence. Everyone’s sequence will be unique and different. You are looking to find and understand the functional seizure preceding biomarkers, the auras.

My sequence was the same but different, for the different functional seizure types I experienced.

Let us call the sequence of auras a, b, c and d.

Each one being a different aura, with ‘d’ being the final one before I lost the reference point of voluntary/involuntary conscious/sub conscious mode and entering a full body functional physical seizure or a functional absence seizure.

Once I knew what ‘d’ was, this gave me the last reference point before the tipping point.

I found that distraction techniques only ‘deferred’ the onset of a seizure sequence to a later point in time and in a paradoxical way the process of distraction was ‘re-enforcing’ the original neural pathway. Not per se creating alternate pathways.

This supports the view that the existing general advice as to how to mitigate functional seizure activity is incomplete without the addition of an interrupt, diminish and replace neural process.

To demonstrate this, I voluntarily allowed the aura sequence to develop to aura ‘d’ and then interrupted it. For my functional physical seizures this was through a process I called ‘duck quacking’.

The website has a description of this www.spencerdavida.com​

Others may know this duck quacking as neural entrainment. This is an emerging topic of research in neuroscience.

When this resulted in a cessation or if you wish a ‘halt’ in the seizure process consistently, I then repeated the process to ‘c’. As ‘c’s was a different aura, I used a different ‘form’ of duck quacking’, the same concept just a different sensation and thus brain wave, appropriate to that specific biomarker. Again, once this resulted in cessation, I then repeated the process to ‘b’ and ultimately to ‘a’.

This interrupted and diminished the functional seizure process. As each aura was a specific biomarker it was also a specific neural pathway to be untrained and replaced with a more beneficial pathway in the voluntary side of the voluntary/involuntary side of the equilibrium.

The process gradually unpicked the sequence of presenting aura working back from the tipping point. Establishing new pathways which meant I ceased to arrive at the tipping point.

How did this progress.

Here is the graphical representation. Figure one shows the reduction in functional seizures over time and Figure 2 shows the step down or if you invert it, a practical demonstration of the power of neuroplasticity based upon ‘probability’ of functional seizure. The inverted ‘steps’ in the second chart show the ‘learning’ style of the neural network.

18 July

Right ear problems have returned.

I survived the heat by staying in a cool place, hydrated and being sensible.

My right ear thought that was too sensible. It’s response after a week of pain – ear drum rupture number three. I’ll have to keep a separate log for the number of ear drum perforations.